Stress!

I posted yesterday that I have been struggling emotionally with stress and depression. Last night my husband sat me down and basically challenged me to get some more help and to try to cut back on stress.

The number one thing that stresses me out is my job, and although I would quit in a heartbeat if I could, I consider my job a blessing as it provides the income and security in terms of benefits that I would otherwise not have.

We decided that I should drop the Marketing class I had started this week (I am about 2/3's of the way through an MBA in Accounting right now). I plan to start back up in October after the pregnancy test results.

I also am going to try to see a psychiatrist to get my medications straightened out. I'm thinking the meds I'm on right now are just not hitting the right neurotransmitter to make the difference I really need. I've been seeing a family practice doctor, but I really think I need to see a specialist. I have a few names to call on tomorrow.

Marty wanted me to consider cancelling the IVF cycle, but I feel very strongly that we need to proceed. I'm a little nervous about it though because pregnancy makes me feel anxious and stressed anyways, and if it doesn't work, I could be in for a crash.

So life goes on. It is not always easy. I suspect that many mothers in my position go through the same kinds of ups and downs.